The heart of the matter…

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Most of the drama I have created in my life comes from some very deep seeded insecurities. Why is it that I feel a need to compare myself to other women and point out what I am not?? It’s kinda a slap in the face to God. Part of my problem is I truly want to follow God but my insecurity tells me I am not worthy, how could he use me?? God has been very clear with me His purpose and laid on my heart the hearts of all women, we all have similar struggles and desire to be accepted by our peers, to be found beautiful in another’s eyes.
For me I think Beth Moore Christian Author and Speaker put it best in her book entitled So Long Insecurity, she say’s “A time comes in a willing life when you’re ready to face a Goliath -sized foe all by itself and fight to the stinking death.” and for me that time is now some recent bad choices have made me relize just how insecure I really am, it’s what is deeply rooted at the heart of the matter of all my bad decisions, especially as of late, it’s the BIG I , it takes many forms and isn’t always visible to the naked eye but never the less is always just hoving at the sufface whether I relize it or not. to the outside world it may appear I have all the confidence in the world but the truth is like many women and men too I want acceptance and long to have what I think others have at times.
Insecurity comes in many forms and is not always easy to recognize. The bigger question that Beth Moore poses in her book is quote”Whether or not our insecurities are substantial enough to hurt, limit or even distract us from profound effectiveness or fulfillment of purpose.” God has given us each a purpose, He has a plan for our lives, Are you allowing your insecurities to limit the fulfillment of those plans or are you willing to work through them to get to the root and move beyond them? Let’s look at the definition of insecurity: It refers to a profound sense of self-doubt, a deep feeling of uncertainty about our basic worth and our place in this world.
At this point, I don’t mean to keep quoting one of my favorite author and speaker’s but Beth is really on to something here and I have chosen to blog my thoughts on this what hopes to be a life-changing look at insecurity for me. Again the book is called So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore and this blog is on the first 3 chapters of said book, it has been very eye-opening for me and has helped me already to see why I have made some of the bad choices as of late, it is an area in my life that I need much healing in.
Please join me on this journey of self-discovery and revelation and of hope and healing!
Insecurity truly is at the heart of most issues for most of us especially in a woman’s heart, let’s unite and battle this Goliath-sized issue together.
Remember God is good all the time and all the time God is good!
Repost from a former blog – February 2012
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Simply Peg